NSFW Gamergasm – I’m A Girl, I Swear

Gamergasm - I'm A Girl, I Swear

It is often pointed out to me. “Lex, you are not like most women we know.”

I know. I play video games. I have a comic book collection that would rival even the most hardcore fan. I cosplay at conventions in costumes that look not only accurate but I go as people OTHER than the stereotypical “Geek Girl” staples. I am embraced more often than not as just “one of the guys” and it’s been this way since I was about seven. I’m still not sure why. Upon looking at me, I wear dresses a lot, I look very girl like – It’s not like I really hide from my femininity.

Then, I open my mouth.

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I think the thing that surprises most people about me is that I actually not only possess a sex drive, but that my browser history and my art collection reflect that. I love hentai. I love erotica. I love what most people consider to be weird sex – pictures of it, stories about it and basically anything my weird little brain (And body) can desire and or respond to.

This all started around about the time I was about fifteen, and discovered certain corners of the internet that we all share a love for. I know that this is hard to believe but it is not like I had people crawling all over me for a date. I was what you call a “nerd” – and this is before “geek” was the new “cool”. I spent my weekends at comic book stores, or camped out in my bedroom playing video games. I was a thespian – Which means that I spent my free time on a stage pretending to be someone else. I took ballroom dance classes. I was not exactly what the kids at my college prep school called a “catch.” I was smart, I read a book a week (still do) and for the most part, I hid my sex drive behind my glasses and nerdy hobbies fairly well.

The first picture I ever saw – the one that got me “hooked on hentai” was a picture of Sailor Moon and a Tentacle monster. I know…I know, I was fifteen, there’s no accounting for taste. There was something about it that pretty much sent me into overdrive. Thus, began my sixteen year long love affair with hentai.

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I pretty much like all kinds of smut. I’m very sexually aware. In my younger years I went to great lengths to hide it. Girls aren’t sent the messages that we are supposed to like sex, or crave it. We certainly are not supposed to be into the “weird stuff.” I use the term “weird stuff” loosely, as what that means changes pretty regularly.

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I just know that even to this day, people seem to believe that if a woman actively seeks this stuff out, there is something about her that is wrong. It is expected of young men, older men..males in general. People joke about it, there are restaurants that cater to this (Hooters is a prime example) – srip clubs…entire media and marketing franchises that exist only to play to the male sex drive.

It hasn’t been until recently that people have started making “female friendly” porn. I’ve watched them, they tend to be more romantic. Focus on things that are..less graphic and demeaning than traditional male marketed pornography. It is still a niche market and it’s still considered strange for women to openly like the kinds of things I do.

It’s a very strange thing to experience. A woman who is at all in touch with her sexuality – one who is open about enjoying things that are not exactly “down the line” or “normal” as far as sex is concerned – is still pretty much called a “slut”. Words like that hurt at first. You come to get used to it all when you realize that it goes with the territory.

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I started doing pinup modeling when I was eighteen. I’ve been writing fantasy erotica since I was about eighteen. I’m thirty one now. It has taken about a decade for me to wrap my mind around the fact that it doesn’t matter what I do – I will be called names or upset someone in some way. I may as well be open about it all – because in someones eyes I’ll be a “slut” anyway. Nevermind that it has nothing to do with my actual behavior. Nevermind that my actual behavior (As I have been fairly monogamous and picky about sexual partners my whole life) has NOTHING to do with any of it.

It is time to come out of the “shame closet”. I’m Lex. I’m thirty one years old. I love video games, comic books, hentai and erotica. I’m not ashamed of my sexuality – no matter how “weird” it may seem to some people. There will always be someone asking me if I got all those kills myself or if my “boyfriend” got them for me. There will always be some pitfalls that come with being a female gamer. I digress. Honestly, I’m tired of acting like there is something wrong with being turned on by some things…because they offend people’s sensibilities.

I came to write for this site because I frequent it. I love the Girl of the Week, I love the articles, I love the whole thing. I hope to be a worthy addition to the staff here, and I hope that I will be accepted among like minded individuals – people who also like their games with a side of sexy.

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It will never be easy to be a woman who is into this kind of stuff. There will always be people who want women to pretend that they aren’t at all into sex. Until, that is, they want some, then we are supposed to be all for it. Again, I digress. From this moment on, I am proud of my perceived perversions….and extra happy to share them all with you.

– Lexxx ~ Twitter ~ Blog

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23 Responses to “NSFW Gamergasm – I’m A Girl, I Swear”

  1. Paul says:

    Wanna get a drink some time?

  2. Lexxx says:

    That is a very sweet offer. I am glad that you liked the article. I never turn down a free drink.

  3. DevilSugar says:

    Welcome to NSFW Gamer. And sexual freedom. This was an awesome piece and I can’t wait to read more. If you’re a Playstation person my ID is DevilOfMidnight. Hope we can co-op headshot sometime in the spirit of being comfortable in our own skin. Ciao 😀

  4. LilSassafras says:

    I just have to say, I loved this article. As a girl who very much enjoys this site, it is nice to see someone embracing similar “weird” interests. Hope to read more from you

  5. OtakuExplosion23 says:

    first i just wanna say power to u and second i always love reading and hearing about persons like you the whole im gonna be me screw evry 1 else has always appealed to me also it’s quite relatable to me personally and of course i agree with evrything u said just reading ur testimony as it were really had made me rethink all i kno and come to my own conclusions about myself anyways im rambling as i do so i conclude with keep fighting nvr give up and of course ur not alone #dowhatthehelliwant 😉

  6. JimmyBones says:

    Welcome to the fold. . .

    ONE OF US!
    ONE OF US!
    ONE OF US. . .

  7. Lexxx says:

    You guys have made me feel so welcome here. I love it.

    DevilSugar – I’m a PC gamer primarily, but GLORP is trying to get me into consoles again. DC may be what does it for me.

    Lilsassifrass – There are more of us around than people think. We need to stick together…I will definately be writing more here.

    Otaku – <3 Thank you.

    JimmyBones – You know it.

  8. P.L.A.D. says:

    Love this! More Lexxx!

  9. Lexxx says:

    P.L.A.D….You can have more Lexxx when you finish your vegetables.

  10. P.L.A.D. says:

    NEVAR

  11. Snowman says:

    I personally dont care what activities you pursue, as long as your free to pursue them. Nice article.

  12. Lord Redek says:

    I think remember the last time an article got such a large response that wasn’t talking about next-gen consolea, this is a good sign indeed.

  13. Noah says:

    Clap… Clap… Clap… Clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap clap etc etc.

  14. Lexxx says:

    @Snowman – I’m with you. Completely.

    @Lord Redek – I have no idea what is happening here…*Shifty eyes* I’m just gonna go over here and keep writing…You guys keep reading? Double Bonus. Seriously though…Thank you.

    @Noah – I’d do a little dance to go with that clapping but they told me not to back that ass up in this zone…There are zoning rules or something. <3

  15. Exodus says:

    Not to sound pervy and it’s about everyone not just you.

    Will we ever get to see pics of the staff who write the articles and maintain the website?

    I personally enjoy putting a face to what I read.

  16. Geist01 says:

    @Exodus – I could try and do something like that

  17. Lexxx says:

    @Exodus – I’ll be happy to do a small Bio with a few pics or something for sure. You can see what I actually look like on my blog (I linked it and all that) But sure! I’m game.

  18. DevilSugar says:

    @Exodus- A “meet the staff” bit? I’d be up for that. Those of us with monikers, such as myself, could even explain the story behind them.

  19. Geist01 says:

    @DevilSugar – I explained mine to someone for the first time last night. Geist01’s origin wasn’t as exciting out loud as it was in my head lol

  20. DevilSugar says:

    @Geist- LOL! Oh, our legends are so cool until we share them!

  21. Exodus says:

    Wow I got the whole staff to respond cool! Looking forward to it all!

  22. norritt says:

    you seem awesome lexxx nice article

  23. Thank you SO MUCH Norritt <3